Increase My Faith….Because the Hurt Was So Deep

The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!” …(Luke 17:5)

Today I found myself uttering the same words as the apostles, “Lord, increase my faith!” If I could be quite honest, I feel a lot like them after reading Jesus’ words about forgiveness. As I was contemplating the words of Jesus on forgiveness I thought of 1 Corinthians 13….”love keeps no record of wrongs”…”love is not proud”….Sometimes, these are hard ones for me to live out. I’ll be honest, sometimes, the stories of my past sit right behind my lips because I struggle at “keeping no record of wrong” towards that person.
Learning to let our past go means learning to wipe away the sin done to us by the other person. This doesn’t mean that we agree with what they did, it just means we release our hurt and their sin into the hands of God. He is full of justice and mercy. We don’t need to keep recalling, because in doing so, it only keeps us from true freedom. The closer that story is to our lips, the further our hand presses that person away.
Why did the disciples cry out, “increase our faith?” Because, just like you and me, they knew they couldn’t practice such forgiveness without deeper faith in the Lord Jesus. Maybe instead of crying out for justice and for answers over our painful situations in life, we should instead be crying out, “Lord, increase my faith!” Today I’m going to choose that phrase instead. I’m trusting God will meet me and grow my faith, because, at times, it can be so weak.
Lord, increase my faith! Yes, please, grow me to be one of your Kingdom workers. Forgive me, Lord, when my faith is so weak. When I let the sins of the past plague my heart and mind. Jesus, today I release everything to you. All of it. Even the deepest parts. Shower me with grace, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.

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