Do not be afraid of them; the Lord your God himself will fight for you….(Deut 3:22)
Becoming a mother is truly revealing some very deep things in my life that need to change. One of those issues is fear. I never knew how deeply it was rooted until my child came into my life. I can think back on her short life and how I’ve seen more time worrying about the bad things that could transpire more than I simply live in the freedom of being her mom.
I’ve been praying this simple prayer the past few days, “Lord, please show me when I sin, how I sin and why I sin, so that I might repent and be changed.”
Friend, God honors prayers like that and wow, He really does start to show us things. In fact, just yesterday, once again I was hit with the opportunity to be afraid and not trust God with my child. I noticed all of this and instead of simply saying that I trusted God, I made the conscious choice to change my thinking and walk a different direction.
It’s so easy to throw up a quick prayer of help to God, but keep walking down the same path of fear and anxiety, isn’t it? At least, that’s what I’ve found to be true for me. Therefore, the past few days I’ve made myself sit still with God and really wrestle out this fear and replace with trust and submission to Him. I’ve found so much more freedom in that, because what my daughter needs most is not a mother who worries but one who lives freely in her ability to show that God is trustworthy.
Whatever sins we deal with in ourselves will be the sins that break the cycle. I know that it has to start with me so that it doesn’t continue with her.
Father, I really can trust you. I don’t have to live in shame, fear or guilt. I can live fully alive in Christ and I want my daughter to see that in me, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.
Heather Quiroz 