But now, Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in you…..(Ps 39:7).
I know you feel disappointed by the things going on around you. I also know that some of the disappointment you feel is being targeted not so much towards the circumstances around you, but the people involved in it.
You might be angry at God, a friend, co-worker, spouse, or relative. I understand that. I’ve been there too, but friend, all of that is just a distraction sent from the devil to destroy your intimacy and trust with God. Whenever I set my gaze on the people around me, I always forget the God who is before me.
Did you hear that? Whenever I get angry and mad at all the people who I feel aren’t coming through for me I will always drown in my own critical, negative and unbelieving heart. But if I can learn, through the mercy of the cross, to set my gaze just as Jesus did, not on those around me, but on the One who sits quietly with rest and perfect assurance I can be at peace even in the midst of some terrible storms.
Friends, we will either become the product of the painful experiences and anger towards people we carry with us, or will become more at peace, because of our deep abiding we CHOOSE to experience with God in the midst of all the pain.
At least, that’s what I’m learning. Since I don’t want to become a product of my painful, disappointing experiences and the people surrounding them, I am learning that my best kind of self doesn’t focus on others, but on what God has and will do for me.
The other day I was having a conversation with a veteran official who spoke some wise, instructive words to me. He said, “Heather, if you focus on caring about what people think of your calls in the game, you won’t make it long as an official.” Friend, we must not set our gaze on people, but on Jesus, the Lord of all who holds this whole thing together.
Father, sometimes I get so distracted and I neglect to truly seek you. I let the negative and critical words of the enemy run like fire through my head. Forgive me, I want to choose to be different and to rest in you and your love, in Jesus name, Amen.