Sometimes I’m Not Satisfied With What He Provides

Give us this day our daily bread….(Matt 6:11)

The other day, my husband and I went out for dinner to celebrate our anniversary. My husband let me pick the restaurant. I did some looking around, read some menus and found the spot. However, when we showed up, the menu was very different from what was on the website and they didn’t have the sandwich I was salivating over. So I settled for something else, which actually turned out to be quite disappointing.

Have you ever felt that way with God? Disappointed over the bread He’s feeding you? Feeling like He burnt the toast instead of buttered it perfectly for you?

I have most definitely felt that way. What I’m learning though is that sometimes God doesn’t butter the bread the way we like it, because the way we like it just feeds some sort of false comfort or idol we believe we need in order to truly be at rest and be satisfied.

That’s where I’m currently at. I feel like I can’t fully rest because in my eyes, there’s something missing on the menu of God’s provision and I feel like I can only true be satisfied if He puts that sandwich back on the menu.

Yet, there is a feast for me today from the hand of His provision, not the sandwich I think I need, but the meal He’s provided, because you see friends, I really do believe it is an act of mercy and grace that sometimes the Father keeps us from the meal we want. He’s trying to starve something out of us and for that we must learn to rest and praise Him.

I’m getting there, slowly but surely, won’t you join me?

Lord, your provision is good. In you I lack no good thing. Every good and perfect gift is from above. Your hand feeds me. Lord, grant me only my daily bread, I pray, in Jesus name, Amen.